Well, I did OK-ish on the food front this week, however I don’t have a loss to report. Honestly, I’ve been struggling, especially on the weekends, for the past month. Since my nephew passed away, I’ve been turning to food for comfort. Which is typical of me, I am an emotional eater. Always have been. This is a constant struggle. I see food as comfort, a friend when I’m in need of one, a celebration, entertainment when I’m bored, etc. I recently ordered Ginger Vieira‘s book “Emotional Eating with Diabetes” and am very much looking forward to diving into it when it arrives. (Yes, I still read paper books. Maybe Santa Husband will get me a Kindle this year? *cough*HINT*cough*). I really hope this book will give me some tools to prevent over treatment of lows and to not abuse myself by abusing food. I’ll be sure to post a review once I read it.
The husband and I have been doing a pretty poor job of planning our weekend meals, which has led to lots of eating out. Related to what I said above, I have this mental block where I see eating out as a reward or celebration. The little devil on my shoulder tells me I’m not going to go to a restaurant and get something boring like grilled chicken and veggies when I can make that at home. I’m getting stuff I don’t normally cook – fried goodness, heavy pastas, etc. I think that the husband and I need to not only be better about including weekend meals in our menu planning, but I also need to remind myself that this is a journey and a process and going out to eat does not give me a free pass to throw calories out the window.
One victory I do have to post about is that I went back to the gym yesterday for the first time in over a month. I had previously posted about a fear of exercising because my blood sugar seems to behave pretty erratically when I work out. I’m really striving to keep things as steady as possible with less drastic blood sugar swings. This was making me hesitant to work out because of the naughty behavior of my blood sugar during and after exercise. But, after some encouragement from friends, I decided I need to face this head on. I like boxing and, duh, exercise is good for everyone but especially for a person with diabetes. So, I went to the gym yesterday and surprisingly, stayed level the whole time. Started my workout at 169, ended it at 161. I also was OK after too. I’m going to continue to play with this and take meticulous notes on my phone of my basal rates, snacks I eat, etc. to see if I can figure out a good game plan for boxing days. Go team?
My goals for this week are:
- Go to the gym at least 2 more times. (And make notes of snacks, BGs, etc. in relation to said workouts)
- Don’t let the weekend derail me.
- Make better decisions when dining out.
- Remind myself that food is fuel and question myself if I am eating due to emotions or boredom.
- And, not to fart whilst I exercise: