Friday Fives: August 9, 2013

Five things that (irrationally?) worry me about a future pregnancy with Type 1

1.  What the heck am I going to drink?  This makes me sound like a lush, ha.  Seriously, though.  My CDE said I can have 2 artificial sweeteners per day.  I use Stevia, which, according to my reliable resources on the interwebs, is safe during pregnancy.  Awesome.  I can have brewed Iced Tea sweetened with Stevia (right?).  Of course I don’t want my future baby born with 3 eyes or anything, so I will do my very best to eliminate/strictly limit all artificial sweeteners and caffeine.  *gasp*.  Bye bye coffee.  Hello….water?  Milk?  What else is there?  Should I ween myself now?  I have no problems with giving up wine and beer (although, nachos just don’t taste the same with water!), but I fear that giving up coffee will make me a nightmare to live with.  It’s going to be a long 40 weeks!  Sorry in advance for the crankiness, husband.  ♥ you.

2.  Is my job going to hate me with the 900 million doctors appointments I will have?  My Endo’s and future OBgyn’s offices are a good 30-40 minutes away and as far as I know, do not offer evening appointments.  However, I’m not willing to change because I love my endocrinologist and her team and I especially love my CDE.  Luckily my CDE is very responsive via email so I am hoping that maybe, possibly, she will continue to help me adjust my rates and answer my questions via email when I am pregnant.  Taking a lot of time from work to go to the doctor is something I already feel self-conscious of.  I really am nervous that my coworkers will be frustrated when the time comes and I have so many more doctor’s appointments.  However, I think that my direct supervisors will be more than understanding, as one of them recently herself had a high risk pregnancy.  But still, I don’t want people to think I’m a slacker.

3.  Working, period.  Diabetes is a full-time job.  My job is a full-time job.  Being pregnant will be a full-time job.  I’m tired.

4.  Keeping the secret.  The hubs and I have agreed that we don’t want to tell anyone until I’m 12-16 weeks along, however this may prove difficult.  I imagine I will tell my sister sooner since she lives close by and I see her frequently.  And I was the first to know (after her husband, of course!) with all of her pregnancies.  (Neener, neener Mom! Haha!)  But there are going to be challenges, depending on when we conceive.  It could be a non-issue, in that we wouldn’t see our parents for the first 12 to 16 weeks due to schedules, when holidays fall, etc.  Or there could be lots of time spent with parents in which I’ll have to lie my tender boobies off.  It is pretty important to me that we don’t tell anyone until after the first trimester so we will just have to do our best.  I’m looking forward to having a little secret with the husband.  ♥

5.  Guilt.  I’ve read about this on so many different blogs of D-mommies/mommies-to-be.  The guilt they feel when their BGs aren’t in range.  I really want to enjoy my future pregnancy and be as laid back as a pregnant PWD can be, but knowing myself and how much I already love our future baby, I just have a feeling I will be super hard on myself if I am out of range.  I hope I can find a good balance.

6. Judgement from others.  (OK, it’s friday fives plus a bonus!).  I’ve never been pregnant.  I am scared, nervous, excited for that day when I see two lines on the pee stick.  I have no idea what it will be like, how it will feel to hear my baby’s heartbeat for the first time, to feel the flutter of movement, etc.  I am researching pregnancy with type 1 as much as I possibly can in an effort to educate myself so I can kind of know what to expect.  I know that it’s going to be hard.  I know I’ll have to make sacrifices (see #1).  I know that there’s a decent chance I’ll have to have a Cesarean section.  I just worry that people will judge me based on their experiences and what they think is right.  I know my husband will have my back and I will just remind the judgey McJudgersons that although they may have been pregnant, they’ve never been pregnant with type 1 and I’m doing the best that I can for my unborn child.  And if all else fails, I’ll break out some kickboxing moves and show them who’s boss.

I am thinking about this stuff more and more lately as the day when we start “trying” doesn’t seem as far off as it did a few months ago.  I am so inspired by the type 1 women who have had successful pregnancies and know that my pre-worrying is a bit on the cuckoo side.  But I also know it’s normal as we PWD can’t just throw caution to the wind and have to actually really plan and work hard for our pregnancies.  In the end when I hold that little life, it’ll all be worth it.

13 thoughts on “Friday Fives: August 9, 2013

  1. All things considered, I am convinced you will do wonderfully. I’m also sure that no one has ever been pregnant and did not experience guilt for some reason or another. You have researched, planned, and made the right choices. You deserve this!

    And I think you forgot to include me on the early notice list for the Big Announcement 😉

  2. My advice to you is don’t stress so much about the prospects of pregnancy. Pregnancy is different for everyone just like our diabetes is. Remain positive about it as you do with your d. Everyone will be there to support you and help you through. When I was pregnant with my son, I did have worries but mainly because I miscarried before, I stressed to start with over that and also my bg’s. I was prepared for the worst. However I decided I would play my part in doing as best as I could with my bg’s and staying ontop of the d. After that it is out if my hands. I believed that if god wanted it to progress well he would make that happen. I stopped stressing and took each week and trimester as it came and as a blessing. Now I have my peanut boy and what a blessing he is.
    Please don’t worry! Don’t stress! When it happens I know you will do your best and be ontop of everything. Pray and be patient with it all 💗

    • I’m not too stressed, just fear of the unknown, ya know? But it’s not like I’ll be the first T1D to have a baby, I know it can be done! I’ve just never done it before! :o)

  3. #1 ditto, #2 ditto #’s 3 4 5 and 6 all ditto!!!! Its like I was reading my own thoughts. We were trying pretty diligently for about 4 months, but now I’ve got the prospect of a much better job opportunity so if that happens, I really don’t want to get pregnant right after starting a new job. First time preggers, stressful, diabetes on its own stressful, new job, stressful. I really don’t want to mix them all. At the same time I’m not getting any younger!!!!

    On another note, I’ve been reading “Balancing Pregnancy and Preexisting Diabetes”. You should check it out if you haven’t already. I can’t remember who its by though.

  4. i am totally excited for your pregnancy!

    i have one practical bit of advice, maybe. is carbonation permitted during pregnancy? we use a sodastream penguin (just a seltzer maker) and add a squeeze of lemon, lime, or a splash of other juice.

    i’m way behind on my blog reading. for all i know, you just wrote a post about how bad carbonation is or how you just got a sodastream penguin. going to read now…

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